JohnxReader: I'll Lose My Cool for You

“Crap” I thought as I stepped into a puddle, not watching where I was going.

“__!” I heard someone yell.

I looked behind me and saw none other than my neighbor, John Egbert.

John and I.. Well.. We’re very close friends. Best friends. He’s been there with me since I moved to a house next door to his about 10 years ago. I mean… now we aren’t in the same houses especially since our houses got fucking destroyed by you know fucking what.

“John.” I said cooley and smiled gently at him, shades covering my eyes. Oh yeah, I’m also best friends with Dave Strider. We got along because shades and apple juice.. Pretty fucking cool if you ask me.  

Anyway… John and I decided to go to Karkat’s place and sleep over since that fucker didn’t have anything to do and neither did we. I brought a backpack full of food, apple juice, and faygo while John bought a backpack full of movies.

I almost always go to Karkat’s so I have my own room over there. Along with me always going, I always see Gamzee there. That ass clown is the best. We get along really well. I guess along with Dave and John, Gamzee is also my best friend. Karkat is more like a brother to me.

“So, ___. How is Karkat’s place?” John asked me as we were walking down to his place.

“Oh, it’s your first time going, isn’t it?” I saw him nod in response.

“Well, it’s really nice. You can stay in the room I have over there. I go there quite a lot so, you shouldn’t be surprised that I literally have my own room… His living room is way cleaner than anyone would ever expect and he has quite a big tv. I took a couple game systems over there so we wouldn’t get bored and he rarely buys food so I tend to take a bunch… A backpack full of it to be exact.” I smirked a bit.

Embarrassingly, I tripped over the sidewalk and almost fell over, but I felt John grab me by the arm and pull me back, making me fall on top of him. My glasses fell off and I was eye to eye with John. My eyes widened and I gasped, going for my glasses and putting them on. by then, I was blushing.

“Whoa..” John breathed out, “your eyes are… glowing grey.”

“Y-yeah… what of it.” I huffed and got up.

“They’re quite breath taking.” He said as I helped him up. “in all those years knowing you, I didn’t know.”

“Well… mainly because I’ve never taken my sunglasses off in front of you.” I started walking to Karkat’s again, closely behind John.

He smiled a goofy little smile at me and we got to Karkat’s.

“I’M HOME FUCKERS.” I yelled as I opened the door.

“Got the food?” Karkat stuck his head through the living room door.

“No shi-” I was interupted

“Got the fucking Faygo?!” I heard Gamzee yell.

“Fuck yes.” I entered pulling John along, closing the door behind us.

We went to the living room and dumped everything out of the bags John and I had. Piles of faygo, food and movies covering the floor.

“All that shit fit into two fucking backpacks?” Karkat asked.

“yep.” I smirked.

We immediately started watching movies and eating to our heart’s desire.

At about 3 am, Gamzee, Karkat and John fell asleep on the couch.

I got up and went to my room here and closed it slowly, turning on the lights to reveal my cozy bed, my guitar, and my microphone.

I sighed and sat on my bed, grabbing the guitar.

“Oh gog why do i feel this way

my heart skipping beats

I see you everyday and want you in my sheets

you make me feel alive

you make me feel at ease

you make me feel heart struck

oh why do this to me

when I don’t do the same

I want to be your love but

I don’t know if it’s meant to be

I feel like you’re the one

I feel like you’re the guy

but i have to keep my cool

Or I’d feel like just a tool

Can’t you see,

I’m flushed for you

you’re my best friend

oh why just friends

can we be more

is it to be

I don’t think so

you’re too great for me.”

I sighed and put my guitar down, feeling like such a fucking dork singing that song.

“Ooooh, so who do you like?!” John’s sleepy voice whispered through the door.

“Fucking damn, John..” I was startled a bit.

“So?” John sat next to me on my bed, his messy hair in front of his face. “I feel like that for someone in our group of friends too. I don’t necessarily like her. I more love her than like her.”

I moved closer to John as my interest peaked at who he liked. I wasn’t much of a jealous type so it was kind of weird feeling this pang of jealousy towards who John liked.

“Really? The guy I like happens to be in our group of friends and.. well… I feel like I could never possibly tell him.” I sighed.

“Same here. Don’t want to ruin the friendship. He smiled gently.

“It’s three am… we should probably go to sleep now.” I gently patted the bed gently and we crawled in, turning off the light, falling asleep.

    I woke up clear on the other side of the bed opposite of John. I sat up and stretched, blushing because John had heard me singing that song that was honestly about him.

“Good morning, __” John yawned and sat up.

“Morning” I adjusted my glasses and smiled gently at him.

    “I still would like to know who you like” John said as we headed down to the surprisingly clean kitchen. I grabbed eggs, bacon, and ingredients to make pancakes.

    “Well.. It’s just this guy who’s my best friend. Not Karkat. He’s like a brother to me.” I started mixing in the pancake ingredients and everything.

    John turned the stove on and put a pan on there.

“It’s ok to tell the dude. I bet it’s dave. I mean, you two get along with each other like no other. You guys are always talking and you seem really happy around each other, always having things to talk about and having almost exactly the same thoughts.” he was cooking beside me as i flipped a pancake.

“Well… It’s not… Honestly John… It’s complicated to tell him because… He already told me he likes someone. Love is complicated dude. I tend to try to stay out of it.” I was already making the last two pancakes, making two for everyone.

I put the pancakes on one plate and the bacon and eggs on the other then set the table up, making sure I get apple juice and gamzee gets Faygo.

“Yo fuckers, wake up. I made breakfast.” I woke Gamzee and Karkat up.

“Oh my fuck it smells amazing” Karkat woke up and Gamzee just got up, running to the kitchen. We all sat down for breakfast and laughed at a bunch of stupid things, talking about a lot, and just throwing food at each other occasionally.

“Thanks __!” John said as he was eating.

I smiled and nodded as a thank you. I washed the dishes after eating and sighed, wishing I had the courage to tell John.

“___… I might have a hint as to who you like.” John came in from the living room, making sure that Gamzee and Karkat were too busy playing and fighting over a videogame and having fun to see him walk out.

“Hmm?” I turned to him, not hearing what he said.

We were standing face to face and he smiled at me gently and gave me a sudden but sweet kiss.

I blushed insanely and couldn’t respond to that. Instead a dropped a plate and it broke to hundreds of pieces. He pulled away and sighed and walked away to the living room, probably thinking he was wrong.

As soon as I came to my senses, I picked up the broken plate and saw that Gamzee and Karkat had came running to the kitchen.

“What happened?!” Karkat and Gamzee were both staring at me wide eyed.

I looked up at them, “nothing to worry about. Where’s John..?”

“He went back home and took his movies.” Karkat said

“I’m going to go visit him. I’ll see you guys later ok?” I said as soon as I finished cleaning.

Karkat knew exactly what happened since he was a brother to me. He knew every little thing about me and suspected that I was going to John’s to tell him I did like him… no… fuck that… LOVE is the word.

I quickly ran out of Karkat’s and ran towards John’s house. Let’s not fucking forget that im clumsy as fuck, so on my way there, I tripped over my own feet and face planted the sidewalk.

“Fuck..” I mumbled and got up, seeing my glasses, broken and on the cold hard ground. “Why now of all times.” I got up and picked up what was left of the glasses.

“John!” I got to his house and was out of breath. “shit”

I knocked on the door hard and tears started welling up in my eyes as I started breaking down. My favorite glasses were broken, Karkat is probably telling people about John and I apparently getting together and John probably wants nothing to do with me. Right then and there is where I had finally lost my cool, crying out for John. I’m breaking down over love. Something I’d never wanted to do in my life.

“_-___?” John sniffled through the window, me unable to hear.

I was on his doorstep, crying and hugging myself.

“Shoot!” John wiped away his tears and quickly ran down the stairs to me, worried.

“___!” John hugged me and held me close. “W-What happened?”

“I’m so s-sorry..” I was trembling and crying.

“No… I’m sorry for just leaving you like that.. I’m so sorry for randomly kissing you and I’m sorry I kissed you when you liked someone else…” John sighed.

I calmed down a bit and wiped away some tears. “N-no.. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you… Fuck it.. John Egbert… I-”

“I love you ___.” he looked at me straight in the eyes and wiped away the rest of my tears. “May I… kiss you?”

I nodded. He kissed me gently and hugged me close.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you earlier… years earlier that I love you.” He had his forehead against mine.

“Well… you have now..” I smiled and he picked me up, taking me inside.

“Don’t tell anyone I broke my cool.” I said calmly.

“Depends.” John looked at me.

I raised an eyebrow questioningly.

“Go out with me?” he smiled his toothy grin.

“Gladly.” I smiled. “Have an extra pair of shades?”